Wednesday, April 08, 2009

No Fits

Most of you know that Mike and I are going through fertility treatments, but I don't really talk about it too much on here. It's not at all that I mind sharing. If you know me well enough, you know I'll tell anyone just about anything. I guess it's mostly that although infertility is a big part of my life right now, I am determined to not make it my whole life. I know that some people (hi mom!) wonder how I am handling it all, and frankly, I would say pretty well. I hear stories about people who say it was just the absolute worst and that they cried and cried and cried...and cried some more.

Well, it is the hardest thing I have ever been through. And sometimes I do want to cry. Sometimes I do cry. But as time goes on, I don't really feel the need anymore. Sometimes treatments don't work. Sometimes treatments make me not feel so hot. My friends are getting pregnant, having babies, getting pregnant again. But so what? Is the world supposed to stop because I can't have a baby? Not only would it be incredibly selfish of me to wish it would, but I wouldn't have any cute babies to play with while I wait for my own!

So, every day I tell myself the same thing I tell my kids at school "You Get What You Get, and You Don't Throw a Fit." I have talked about it before, but who am I to tell God that now is the time for me to have a baby? I want one, sure, but through this time I have definitely learned what it means to wait on His timing! So, I'll take what I get...no fits here (well...at least most of the time).

9 comments:

laurenk said...

Love the honesty and will try to remember this when going through my difficulties and about about to throw a fit. I bet Tim would appreciate this as well! ;-)

Leah Williams said...

Oh I use that saying more than you can believe!

I love your attitude about it! God has a plan, we jus have give him time to reveal it, right? So much easier to type that than to actually do it! :) I'm still praying for you girl!

Rhonda said...

Hi, Manda! I love you.

Stewart Stuff said...

I believe that you have the right attitute for the situation that are you going through and God is giving you the strength during this time. I tell my kiddos "You get what you get and you don't throw a fit" as well. It's the best line ever and they can't argue it. :)

joeandjan said...

Where did you get all that wisdom at your young age! I think you're just like your Aunt Jan. ha!ha!ha! Rhonda. Seriously, I can see God at work in your life. I am so proud of you I can't see straight (course at my age I don't think I'm seeing too straight anyway). We love you (and you, too, Mike!)

brooke said...

LOVE you!

Libby said...

I am blown away by your post...what an amazing outlook you have. God does have a plan and I am humbled by your willingness to abide by it...

The Walkers said...

Love you Friend!!! :)

Becky said...

Thanks for the reminder... I am sure you have heard about my life recently...

your right who am I to tell God when to do something...

I guess I will take what I get, and don't throw a fit... (can I pout a little?)

:)